Sunday, 10 June 2012 | 22:05 | I am such a sad person to look at. I've finally got a crush, this time a real crush who is like the male version of myself. He read books I like, he hears to songs that aren't that famous which I thought only I hear to, obsessed over the same thing as I am. He have been really helpful on the last exam, and we had some conversations together. But I really don't have the confidence to confess. I think I am scared because he's at a higher level than I am. I am afraid of what his "high status" friends might think of me if I ever confessed. And I'm afraid that if I confessed we might not be comfortable to meet or talk to each other again like things can be really awkward or something. And the other day while I was on vacation, I told my ex-boyfriend I missed him so much since I was heck lonely and emotional. And I felt as if I am a burden to him since he's in a middle of choosing either me or that another girl. I couldn't hide my feelings you. I know it looks like I'm desperate but no. I told him because I don't want to hide my pains. I wanted him to know my suffer. I wanted him to understand. I wanted him to choose me. I am such a sad person to look at.
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